Dear FreeTRA, I don't think I like you anymore
You used to be so right
Now some Russians kicking me in a fight
Dear FreeTRA I don't like you anymore
And FreeTRA says,
Dear Oscar I don't like you anymore
It used to be you and me some German porn and simple words
Now you want me to translate real words
Dear Oscar I don't like you anymore
mandag 28. februar 2011
lørdag 19. februar 2011
Epiolouge
I might not be in Australia anymore but I might aswell write something here.
I'm back in Sweden after a year and to be honest I don't want to be here, sure I have my family, friends and loved ones here, but I can't leave, I can't return.
During the first two hours in Sweden, four Swedish people talked english to me, they actually thought I didn't understand Swedish.
How can I call this my home when people don't see me as one of them, a Scandinavian, a Swede.
The truth is that I've lived ten years in Norway, ten years in Sweden, one year in Australia, out of this I've never felt as home as I did in Australia, people actually cared for me there, I wasn't just some international student, I was a mate.
I'm going to return to Australia, migrate and never think about Sweden or Norway ever again.
This isn't my home anymore, this is a foreign country to me.
I'm back in Sweden after a year and to be honest I don't want to be here, sure I have my family, friends and loved ones here, but I can't leave, I can't return.
During the first two hours in Sweden, four Swedish people talked english to me, they actually thought I didn't understand Swedish.
How can I call this my home when people don't see me as one of them, a Scandinavian, a Swede.
The truth is that I've lived ten years in Norway, ten years in Sweden, one year in Australia, out of this I've never felt as home as I did in Australia, people actually cared for me there, I wasn't just some international student, I was a mate.
I'm going to return to Australia, migrate and never think about Sweden or Norway ever again.
This isn't my home anymore, this is a foreign country to me.
torsdag 10. februar 2011
Eight hours in CHINA!
Finaly something good with the whole going home thing, well more than the obvious, I'm going to have eight hours in China and if I'm lucky I can leave the airport, me in the BIGGEST Communist republic that is left, this is just to cool!
I have to see more than the airport, I mean just think about it, we have so much, culture and history, I'm so excited, for me a Marxist this is a great oppurtunity to see communism up close (sure it's a twisted one that isn't close to Marxism but still) and I get to see a new world which I've never thought I'd see in many years.
Can't stop smiling now.
I have to see more than the airport, I mean just think about it, we have so much, culture and history, I'm so excited, for me a Marxist this is a great oppurtunity to see communism up close (sure it's a twisted one that isn't close to Marxism but still) and I get to see a new world which I've never thought I'd see in many years.
Can't stop smiling now.
onsdag 2. februar 2011
silence before the storm
It's an old saying, but in Cairns at the moment it's everything but silent, the wind are picking up and Yasi are on it's way in, it's going to hit in about fiften to twenty minutes, this is one of the biggest cyclones in a while and the Australians in the affected area are preparing with everything they have.
Advice on telly are out saying, stay inside, hide under a strong table, use madrasses if the roof goes.
It's a category five cyclone, some people doesn't seem to understand how dangerous this is, a reporter in a hostel just talked about some people playing drinking games, one Yank who claimed to have survived a cyclone in the US were planning to go outside to have a cyclone party tonight.
Let's hope he uses his brain, but I guess not, I mean he is a Yank after all.
People have been recording their homes and where they are going to hide now before the cyclone hit, they are going to bunk in small rooms and halways.
Good luck north Queenslanders, our hearts are with you.
Advice on telly are out saying, stay inside, hide under a strong table, use madrasses if the roof goes.
It's a category five cyclone, some people doesn't seem to understand how dangerous this is, a reporter in a hostel just talked about some people playing drinking games, one Yank who claimed to have survived a cyclone in the US were planning to go outside to have a cyclone party tonight.
Let's hope he uses his brain, but I guess not, I mean he is a Yank after all.
People have been recording their homes and where they are going to hide now before the cyclone hit, they are going to bunk in small rooms and halways.
Good luck north Queenslanders, our hearts are with you.
mandag 31. januar 2011
okay now I've done it
Stupid embassy, they wanted me to give them a list of people that could help me with my ticket home, I just scribled down a couple of people that would be logical to help me out.
But ofcourse the embasy said something, no idea what, but it uppset whoever they called, that wasn't my plan, I thought the people they called would say that they couldn't help out so that the embassy would be forced to help me out, but noooo ofcourse not.
I'd like to know what they said, appart from that I couldn't care less, but as I said, this wasn't my plan at all.
It's not my fault!
Oh geez to much, now both my parents are mad at me, but I never meant for it to go like this.
Stupid stupid embassy.
But ofcourse the embasy said something, no idea what, but it uppset whoever they called, that wasn't my plan, I thought the people they called would say that they couldn't help out so that the embassy would be forced to help me out, but noooo ofcourse not.
I'd like to know what they said, appart from that I couldn't care less, but as I said, this wasn't my plan at all.
It's not my fault!
Oh geez to much, now both my parents are mad at me, but I never meant for it to go like this.
Stupid stupid embassy.
søndag 16. januar 2011
Just great
My Landlords have found out that the wireing in the house could be dangerous which means that they might have to re do everything, that means that I might have to move out, if that is the case I've decided to transfer to Gothenbourg and continue my studies there, it's sad because I like it here, a lot, but on the bright side, free studies, close to my family and friends.
It's still to early to say anything for sure.
Let's hope for the best!
It's still to early to say anything for sure.
Let's hope for the best!
torsdag 13. januar 2011
yey
Owell it's not much but it's more than nothing, yes I sort of have a job now, handing out adds during the week.
Thank god for the kindness of Bob and Ronda, I mean they buy me food when they realize my supplies have run out, they don't mind the rent being late and the same goes for the electricity bill.
My Lecturer were late, I know now that I passed his topic, however now the guy at the ISSU seems to be gone. (with my luck, he's probably stuck in queensland) And with him gone and he being the only one who can fix with the documents for Laanekassa I'm in some deep deep SH%T, I will have to keep looking for work.
I almost forgot to tell you that I'm also applying for a police clearance wich will allow me to work in certain areas, I'm also my own buisness here in Australia.
With an ABN (Australian Buisness Number).
Thank god for the kindness of Bob and Ronda, I mean they buy me food when they realize my supplies have run out, they don't mind the rent being late and the same goes for the electricity bill.
My Lecturer were late, I know now that I passed his topic, however now the guy at the ISSU seems to be gone. (with my luck, he's probably stuck in queensland) And with him gone and he being the only one who can fix with the documents for Laanekassa I'm in some deep deep SH%T, I will have to keep looking for work.
I almost forgot to tell you that I'm also applying for a police clearance wich will allow me to work in certain areas, I'm also my own buisness here in Australia.
With an ABN (Australian Buisness Number).
tirsdag 11. januar 2011
Queensland
Yesterday I was glued to the telly, they were talking about it the whole day, more than 12 hours with continueing information about the flood, it's insane to see all this, people are loosing their homes, their lives and even their loved ones.
One third of Brisbane will be without power and some water will even make it down to Murray River wich means that Adelaide will taste som of it, not in the same scale as in Queensland, but with the last floods before christmas some of the water ran through the Murray river and a swimmer drowned.
The youngest one in Queensland is a four year old boy, it's sad to see everything.
Some stories about heroic deeds are out there, like the old retired guy that sent his grandchildren up to the roof by floaters, then he sent them away in the rescue helicopter and had to cling on to the roof for more than half an hour for the helicopter to come back.
75% of Queensland have been decleared a disaster zone, this is the biggest flood since 1974 and it's alot bigger.
so to all Australians struggling to survive who haven't been found yet, don't give up hope, you have a whole nation who supports you and who prays for you.
One third of Brisbane will be without power and some water will even make it down to Murray River wich means that Adelaide will taste som of it, not in the same scale as in Queensland, but with the last floods before christmas some of the water ran through the Murray river and a swimmer drowned.
The youngest one in Queensland is a four year old boy, it's sad to see everything.
Some stories about heroic deeds are out there, like the old retired guy that sent his grandchildren up to the roof by floaters, then he sent them away in the rescue helicopter and had to cling on to the roof for more than half an hour for the helicopter to come back.
75% of Queensland have been decleared a disaster zone, this is the biggest flood since 1974 and it's alot bigger.
so to all Australians struggling to survive who haven't been found yet, don't give up hope, you have a whole nation who supports you and who prays for you.
tirsdag 4. januar 2011
So here I sit
Yes, here, listening to old Western Theme song classics, such as "The Good The Bad and The Ugly", "For a Fistful of Dollars" and many more, I realize that I'm comfortable with my life the way it is,
I'm happy to be who I am, not having people telling me to stop dress a certain way or cut my hair, I can go to bed whenever I want to and don't have someone tell me that "in this house we all go to bed when I do" or "Turn down that thing you call music!" I don't have to worry about people telling me to act in their ways and my political beliefs barely interests this household.
My hair is long and soon I'll have long enough to pull everything back into a tail so I can wear my hat on top, then the only thing missing is a dusty (dustcoat) and I'm comfortable.
Sure I love my family, but no one seem to know who I am and who I want to be, instead they are all trying to mold me into someone I'm not.
I do understand that it's important to look like someone respectable in some cases, but people at home tried to give me an expression of UNI, well they were wrong.
I see band T-shirts daily and I even had a lecturer that listened to Iron Maiden.
This life has really given me a chance to see me, me for who I am and me for who I want to be and even if for some stupid reason I wouldn't get another loan from Loanbox (lånekassa) I would still not move home, I would transfer my studies to a Swedish university and just continue there, I don't want to move home, I'd rather live free and make my own choices, not living like I did before comming here.
The taste of freedom, sure it will be more work and more choices for me to take, but as time go on and I learn more and more I can do almost what I want and by Marx I'll do it!
I'm happy to be who I am, not having people telling me to stop dress a certain way or cut my hair, I can go to bed whenever I want to and don't have someone tell me that "in this house we all go to bed when I do" or "Turn down that thing you call music!" I don't have to worry about people telling me to act in their ways and my political beliefs barely interests this household.
My hair is long and soon I'll have long enough to pull everything back into a tail so I can wear my hat on top, then the only thing missing is a dusty (dustcoat) and I'm comfortable.
Sure I love my family, but no one seem to know who I am and who I want to be, instead they are all trying to mold me into someone I'm not.
I do understand that it's important to look like someone respectable in some cases, but people at home tried to give me an expression of UNI, well they were wrong.
I see band T-shirts daily and I even had a lecturer that listened to Iron Maiden.
This life has really given me a chance to see me, me for who I am and me for who I want to be and even if for some stupid reason I wouldn't get another loan from Loanbox (lånekassa) I would still not move home, I would transfer my studies to a Swedish university and just continue there, I don't want to move home, I'd rather live free and make my own choices, not living like I did before comming here.
The taste of freedom, sure it will be more work and more choices for me to take, but as time go on and I learn more and more I can do almost what I want and by Marx I'll do it!
fredag 17. desember 2010
Late night, not much going on
The clock is 01.17 AM and I'm at UNI, promised a friend I would chat with her on Friday, her Friday, anyway, I got here around 10:00 PM and have been watching movies online since I got here, tried to find some old classic Swedish ones but ended up with weird horror movies, at least they are free.
UNI has the perfect settings for horror movies, dark windows everywhere, the sound of the fan in the aircon going round and round, the rain smashing down on the plateroof outside the 24/H room.
Well here I am and I'm not worried about anything, well a job would be nice, I've been back to that place a couple of times and everytime I'm there the woman says she will call me back, one more time ought to do it.
So lets watch Skeleton Key 2, havent seen the first one, but this one looks funny so I might go and look for it after this.
It's in 2-D...whatever that means.
Good old horror movies.
Oh yeah and guess what, England might loose the ashes here in Aus, hope they do!
Cricket is quite the game.
Australia had a prety bad run with 268 runs but guess what, England got 10 vickets out!
So Australia has a better chance of winning, they have to win after loosing in Adelaide and draw in Melbourne.
Owell enough about that.
Cya later
UNI has the perfect settings for horror movies, dark windows everywhere, the sound of the fan in the aircon going round and round, the rain smashing down on the plateroof outside the 24/H room.
Well here I am and I'm not worried about anything, well a job would be nice, I've been back to that place a couple of times and everytime I'm there the woman says she will call me back, one more time ought to do it.
So lets watch Skeleton Key 2, havent seen the first one, but this one looks funny so I might go and look for it after this.
It's in 2-D...whatever that means.
Good old horror movies.
Oh yeah and guess what, England might loose the ashes here in Aus, hope they do!
Cricket is quite the game.
Australia had a prety bad run with 268 runs but guess what, England got 10 vickets out!
So Australia has a better chance of winning, they have to win after loosing in Adelaide and draw in Melbourne.
Owell enough about that.
Cya later
mandag 22. november 2010
I did it
One semester done and over with, after my last exam today, no more semester two and also free until March the first, so that means I can use my rights to work fulltime and apply for bigger jobs.
The best thing with todays exam is, I don't have to pass it to pass that topic, ofcourse I will try my best, two short answers, around 250 words each and one essay question, 500 words.
I am also thinking about joining a club, question is, which one?
I have been looking at Ecoturism, Cricket, Football (...soccer), BUG (Bicycle, usage, group) and the photography club. Owell, we'll see.
I had an exam yesterday, two hour's, Australia and the world, went as it went, we'll see how well or how badly soon enough.
I have also decided to do my major in environmental studies, so I do International Relations with major Environmental Studies, going to be heaps fun.
I want to try to get countries like Sweden and Norway to sell less plastic bags and do as they are doing here in Australia, bags that doesn't harm the environment and that can be used over and over.
If more countries use these then the production of environmental harmfull plastic will be lowered and the environment won't be put in the same stress from plastic.
The best thing with todays exam is, I don't have to pass it to pass that topic, ofcourse I will try my best, two short answers, around 250 words each and one essay question, 500 words.
I am also thinking about joining a club, question is, which one?
I have been looking at Ecoturism, Cricket, Football (...soccer), BUG (Bicycle, usage, group) and the photography club. Owell, we'll see.
I had an exam yesterday, two hour's, Australia and the world, went as it went, we'll see how well or how badly soon enough.
I have also decided to do my major in environmental studies, so I do International Relations with major Environmental Studies, going to be heaps fun.
I want to try to get countries like Sweden and Norway to sell less plastic bags and do as they are doing here in Australia, bags that doesn't harm the environment and that can be used over and over.
If more countries use these then the production of environmental harmfull plastic will be lowered and the environment won't be put in the same stress from plastic.
onsdag 10. november 2010
Finaly something about UNI
Finaly I have something interesting to say, or well, stuff about UNI to say.
I was thinking to my self before, "Since I started this course in the middle of the year, does that mean I am supposed to enroll in year one semester one topics or is it free passage so I enroll in year two semester one topics.
(and can the guy who drinks nuts next to me stop tipping his whole frigging body bakwards more when he drinks those nuts than when he's actually drinking water, it's irritating)
Anyway, so now after running around campus like crazy I finaly found his office, issue there is that on his office door were a note saying: In city on buisness, back at three pm.
So here I sit, waiting, wondering, singing a song and get irritated on the guy who drink nuts.
For people who don't know whats so important with the enrollment it's this: IF I GET IT WRONG I LOOSE MY VISA! Clear enough for you?
Also I'd like to avoid being here an extra semester if it's possible, even if I like it here, there are still other places I'd like to study in, however I can check Australia of the list.
I was thinking to my self before, "Since I started this course in the middle of the year, does that mean I am supposed to enroll in year one semester one topics or is it free passage so I enroll in year two semester one topics.
(and can the guy who drinks nuts next to me stop tipping his whole frigging body bakwards more when he drinks those nuts than when he's actually drinking water, it's irritating)
Anyway, so now after running around campus like crazy I finaly found his office, issue there is that on his office door were a note saying: In city on buisness, back at three pm.
So here I sit, waiting, wondering, singing a song and get irritated on the guy who drink nuts.
For people who don't know whats so important with the enrollment it's this: IF I GET IT WRONG I LOOSE MY VISA! Clear enough for you?
Also I'd like to avoid being here an extra semester if it's possible, even if I like it here, there are still other places I'd like to study in, however I can check Australia of the list.
onsdag 3. november 2010
what a day
Here I am, in the library cellar working on my computer, writing about eutrophication in the Baltic Sea, I haven't even started yet with the website and it all has to be done before four pm tomorrow, but it's so much work and with all the extras from UNI it's crazy, this semester I've been writing more than 14 thousand words in different essays.
At the top of that I have to walk from where I live to UNI because I don't have a bicycle.
The first exam will be at 8.45 AM and last for three hours on, Australia and Indonesia, Australia and Japan, Australia and USA, Australia and China.
I will probably have to write a nice big essay in it as well.
Owell, I've been working hard this whole semester, no point in throwing in the towel yet.
At the top of that I have to walk from where I live to UNI because I don't have a bicycle.
The first exam will be at 8.45 AM and last for three hours on, Australia and Indonesia, Australia and Japan, Australia and USA, Australia and China.
I will probably have to write a nice big essay in it as well.
Owell, I've been working hard this whole semester, no point in throwing in the towel yet.
mandag 25. oktober 2010
wow master in australia is high
I checked the master version of the one I'm doing now International Relations, I pay 8200 a semester on this one, on master it's a bit higher, 19 000 each semester, if I were Australian it would only had been 9 000.
Owell, I might do the master somwhere else.
Owell, I might do the master somwhere else.
søndag 24. oktober 2010
Some might call it.....
Doomsday, judgementday, god's right to judge us all in one sweep, I call it human idiocy, I'm sitting here reading the news on Gp.se we have a guy who shoot people for no obvious reason, three guys started a knife fight on a tram, people kill and murder others rob, sure Adelaide isn't all that much better, last week an old lady were brutaly attacked and beaten to death by some one, but still, since I've left Sweden to study here life there has changed radically.
It seems as if people are insane more violent than we ever have been before, what's going on here?
People are afraid of leaving their homes, we have wars, soliders from all over being killed for a war that has been going on since the 80's.
A couple of weeks ago a girl in Nigeria got beaten up by muslims because she preached and she was christian some my say it was her own fault for preaching inside their mosque, still, this world is more sickening than anything else.
Yet days pass as if this was normal, as if it's nothing.
People probably think that "ah shitt happends, it's not here anyway"
Right it's not, but does that mean it can't happen?
I remember how it was when we had a murder in Moss, people were scared of going out until the police caught the guilty.
And if one person kills, what stops others from doing the same thing, getting a gun these day's doesn't seem to hard, bet I could do it illegal with the right contacts. (not saying I will)
Don't need to since I have the rights to own firearms.
So will we just become more and more angry and dangerous for our surroundings?
Does that mean we are going bakward in evolution?
May be that's what happens when we let anything and everything procreate and let their genes travel onward.
It seems as if people are insane more violent than we ever have been before, what's going on here?
People are afraid of leaving their homes, we have wars, soliders from all over being killed for a war that has been going on since the 80's.
A couple of weeks ago a girl in Nigeria got beaten up by muslims because she preached and she was christian some my say it was her own fault for preaching inside their mosque, still, this world is more sickening than anything else.
Yet days pass as if this was normal, as if it's nothing.
People probably think that "ah shitt happends, it's not here anyway"
Right it's not, but does that mean it can't happen?
I remember how it was when we had a murder in Moss, people were scared of going out until the police caught the guilty.
And if one person kills, what stops others from doing the same thing, getting a gun these day's doesn't seem to hard, bet I could do it illegal with the right contacts. (not saying I will)
Don't need to since I have the rights to own firearms.
So will we just become more and more angry and dangerous for our surroundings?
Does that mean we are going bakward in evolution?
May be that's what happens when we let anything and everything procreate and let their genes travel onward.
fredag 15. oktober 2010
So much to do
Since I've started this semester I've written, essays with together more than 8700 words pluss I've read more than 500 pages in different topics, I've only skipped one lecture to finish an essay and I also been up in time to get to UNI every day 6 Am.
In the weekends I relax with movies that I borrow for free from UNI library at the same time I'm looking for jobs in Adelaide.
I am active in my tutorials and I alway speak my mind.
Now I have one 500 report for wednesday next week and I also have to make a list with pro's and cons for tourism on Island resort's.
I also have to find out as much as I can about education and development in Nigeria and some cheesy facts about the Ogoni people.
Now what else, oh yeah, I have to make a website about the Baltic Sea (Bothnic Gulf) which has to have an essay on 2000 words.
After that there's only the group presentation about Nigeria and two exams left.
What a semester!
Times have surely changed, when I lived back home I never did anything towards school, I did minor things but doing them properly? NEVER! Now all of a sudden I'm doing what I am supposed to and even more suprisingly I love it, I love searching old books about information, I love reading abour Gorbachev, Stalin and other famous historic images, I love discussing enviromental issues in my classes and I love to read about different cultures how they are messed around by their government or forced to leave their land where they have lived for ages.
I love this semester, even if it's so much work, it's heaps of fun and I reacon I can do theese three years with no actual problems!
In the weekends I relax with movies that I borrow for free from UNI library at the same time I'm looking for jobs in Adelaide.
I am active in my tutorials and I alway speak my mind.
Now I have one 500 report for wednesday next week and I also have to make a list with pro's and cons for tourism on Island resort's.
I also have to find out as much as I can about education and development in Nigeria and some cheesy facts about the Ogoni people.
Now what else, oh yeah, I have to make a website about the Baltic Sea (Bothnic Gulf) which has to have an essay on 2000 words.
After that there's only the group presentation about Nigeria and two exams left.
What a semester!
Times have surely changed, when I lived back home I never did anything towards school, I did minor things but doing them properly? NEVER! Now all of a sudden I'm doing what I am supposed to and even more suprisingly I love it, I love searching old books about information, I love reading abour Gorbachev, Stalin and other famous historic images, I love discussing enviromental issues in my classes and I love to read about different cultures how they are messed around by their government or forced to leave their land where they have lived for ages.
I love this semester, even if it's so much work, it's heaps of fun and I reacon I can do theese three years with no actual problems!
mandag 4. oktober 2010
small bugs with nasty bites
The other day when I was going to get some water I took a step outside my room and fellt something burning under my foot, when looking on the floor and searching I see a teeny bug, just a few miutes later I feel lightheaded and dizzy, it feels as if I'm drunk even if the last thing I drank was water, asamof I've only drunk water the whole day.
Made me realize one thing, this sure isn't home, when bugs that back home would irritate you can kill you and they live together with you inside your home, that's different.
Made me realize one thing, this sure isn't home, when bugs that back home would irritate you can kill you and they live together with you inside your home, that's different.
onsdag 15. september 2010
Shitt of the earth
First of all, let me apologize for the strong tittle, but I feel I can't hold this in any longer.
I whish the ultimate evil would just banish from this earth, blown to pieces, burned, killed, removed, the virus has to go and the weed which grows all over this wonderfull planet should be removed.
What am I talking about?
Humanity, or if you can call it that, I stick to, twolegged beasts that kill for fun and ruin everything in their path, in due time we will have comsumed everything on the earth, what will we do then?
Search for new ways in the galaxy, hah!, that only proves my point that we are like roaches, viruses, we destroy one cell or cropfield and then we move on.
Malthus said it first, the population should be reduced, don't help the people that need it and they will die of naturally, well I say take it to the extreme, there are people that don't need to exist, humankind could just aswell burn and be another speices that are lost in the history if time, earth will gradually return to it's normal state, whatever that is, what we know is that it doesnt matter where we look today, we see changes that are a direct result of human involvement, wethter it's trees in england or water shortage in japan.
We are a terrible species, we put ourself at the top at the hiarchy and we also put us ahead of other species on this planet, human arent animal accordint to scientists, so why do we have wars? Isn't that anger a production of instinctal thoughts, the same goes for rasicm, hatred towards others that are different from us.
Stupid, sure we are animals, with a sick desire to kill animals for the entertainement of others, you know what, if we want entertainement of living things, stop bullfighting or cockfighting, go for the ultimate test, ultimate beast versus ultimate beast, reopen the coloceum, force death sentenced prisoners to fight for their life, winner lives to see another day, looser, well you get the point. What rights do we have to throw a bull up against a guy with a two meter spear that he pokes the bull with? What rights do we have to decide what animals should be where, we made borders for the nortic wolfes (the few thats left that is) now what the hell is that good for?!
Last time I checked wolfe's didn't have map's or gps or any other thing to tell them where the hell they were, the only way for them to know an area from another were smell of other heards.
As I said, human are viruses, we polute, we use, we barely care for anything else then ourselfes, the great mankind, didnt we walk on the moon? didnt we go faster then the sound barrier? Didnt we climb mount everest without airsupply or go to depths so insane that no man alive could've been there?
What we are is nothing but shitt, I'm ashamed to call myself human, I would rather see this whole mankind die out, like dinosaurs, like other "higher" beings have been before us.
The only fear is, that after we are gone, some milion years from now, evolution will restart, new species will start develop and before we know it another self sentered species will be on top of it all, doing the same bloody things as we are, killing of the animals they think are useless or less worthy.
Life is a cycle, but this pisses me off.
I dont care what people think, let's hope that our "leaders" of the world will wake up and realize that they are focusing on the wrong hellish things!
Enviroment, nature, wildlife wellfare, now thats important!
Not who has the biggest guns, or best groceries!
I whish the ultimate evil would just banish from this earth, blown to pieces, burned, killed, removed, the virus has to go and the weed which grows all over this wonderfull planet should be removed.
What am I talking about?
Humanity, or if you can call it that, I stick to, twolegged beasts that kill for fun and ruin everything in their path, in due time we will have comsumed everything on the earth, what will we do then?
Search for new ways in the galaxy, hah!, that only proves my point that we are like roaches, viruses, we destroy one cell or cropfield and then we move on.
Malthus said it first, the population should be reduced, don't help the people that need it and they will die of naturally, well I say take it to the extreme, there are people that don't need to exist, humankind could just aswell burn and be another speices that are lost in the history if time, earth will gradually return to it's normal state, whatever that is, what we know is that it doesnt matter where we look today, we see changes that are a direct result of human involvement, wethter it's trees in england or water shortage in japan.
We are a terrible species, we put ourself at the top at the hiarchy and we also put us ahead of other species on this planet, human arent animal accordint to scientists, so why do we have wars? Isn't that anger a production of instinctal thoughts, the same goes for rasicm, hatred towards others that are different from us.
Stupid, sure we are animals, with a sick desire to kill animals for the entertainement of others, you know what, if we want entertainement of living things, stop bullfighting or cockfighting, go for the ultimate test, ultimate beast versus ultimate beast, reopen the coloceum, force death sentenced prisoners to fight for their life, winner lives to see another day, looser, well you get the point. What rights do we have to throw a bull up against a guy with a two meter spear that he pokes the bull with? What rights do we have to decide what animals should be where, we made borders for the nortic wolfes (the few thats left that is) now what the hell is that good for?!
Last time I checked wolfe's didn't have map's or gps or any other thing to tell them where the hell they were, the only way for them to know an area from another were smell of other heards.
As I said, human are viruses, we polute, we use, we barely care for anything else then ourselfes, the great mankind, didnt we walk on the moon? didnt we go faster then the sound barrier? Didnt we climb mount everest without airsupply or go to depths so insane that no man alive could've been there?
What we are is nothing but shitt, I'm ashamed to call myself human, I would rather see this whole mankind die out, like dinosaurs, like other "higher" beings have been before us.
The only fear is, that after we are gone, some milion years from now, evolution will restart, new species will start develop and before we know it another self sentered species will be on top of it all, doing the same bloody things as we are, killing of the animals they think are useless or less worthy.
Life is a cycle, but this pisses me off.
I dont care what people think, let's hope that our "leaders" of the world will wake up and realize that they are focusing on the wrong hellish things!
Enviroment, nature, wildlife wellfare, now thats important!
Not who has the biggest guns, or best groceries!
søndag 12. september 2010
Step up or die
Life is unfair, many try and fail.
Many people today that are rich becomes rich without having to work for it, some people are born into it and others cheat the system to get it.
Problem with life is, if you give up and become a doormatt people are going to take advantage of you, use you so they can climb up the ladder, there are people that work fifty years in the same position to see the higher rank taken by some kid that just finished highschool, I read a blog about a woman who went from work to work because she were treated badly in them, in one she were sexually harassed, when she complained she got fired, in another she got spat in the face because the customer didnt like coloured people and she's just like me, adopted.
Life isnt fair, but if you let it step on you, let it do whatever it want to you, you wont get far, sure I screwed up majorly last semester, but I'm not giving up, not yet, I'm not going to be stuck in a deadend job, picking up smaler peices for others.
It's time to give life a fist in the face and get on with it!
Many people today that are rich becomes rich without having to work for it, some people are born into it and others cheat the system to get it.
Problem with life is, if you give up and become a doormatt people are going to take advantage of you, use you so they can climb up the ladder, there are people that work fifty years in the same position to see the higher rank taken by some kid that just finished highschool, I read a blog about a woman who went from work to work because she were treated badly in them, in one she were sexually harassed, when she complained she got fired, in another she got spat in the face because the customer didnt like coloured people and she's just like me, adopted.
Life isnt fair, but if you let it step on you, let it do whatever it want to you, you wont get far, sure I screwed up majorly last semester, but I'm not giving up, not yet, I'm not going to be stuck in a deadend job, picking up smaler peices for others.
It's time to give life a fist in the face and get on with it!
onsdag 1. september 2010
A real awakening
At UNI today they started talking about ethnisity and culture, some of the people said that they were proud Australians and no matter how they looked at it they were Australians, they couldn't change it even if their wanted to, some of them seemed to indicate that where you are born is where your ethnisity lies, so what is my ethnisity?
Swedish?
Would any swedish person actually agree that I'm swedish?
How about Brasilian then?
Same story there, I'm born there and thats about it.
What can I say that I am?
I've said all my life that I'm swedish because I'm raised that way, swedish culture.
This reminds me about the family who locked their youngest son inside their cellar together with some dogs, the boy started to act like a dog and even thought he were a dog, but no matter how people looked at him, he were a human thinking he was a dog.
Isn't this a bit of the same?
After I became older "wiser" I started asking myself all theese questions, I've always had this void inside, wondering who I am, what my family's history would be, if things could've been different.
I'm not saying that I do not appreciate everything my family has done for me, still are doing for me, don't know where I had been if it wasn't for them, I love them like a son would love his family, but at the same time there's something missing.
I actually envy most of my friends because they know who they are, where their genes come from, they feel the mateship with everyone else and doesn't stick out like me or other's like me.
A reason for me going to Australia more than study were that I belive I can find myself here, find a place I feel I belong in, I don't belong in sweden or norway, I was raised there but I feel like a black sheep in a white sheep farm.
Take Norway for instance, I have been acused for drugsmugling, for being an anchorchild and also every damn time I travel across that border, wether it's by plane or by bus they stop me, why? Because I look different, it doesn't matter that I speak the language fluently or that I've lived there for ten years, in their eyes I'm nothing but an immigrant who rapes their daughters and start pointless fights.
I've been yelled at on the street by normal people, "damn nigger go back where you came from", is it weird I feel like I don't belong?
Who am I really?
I can speculate about my genes, I think that my ancestors came to Brazil from Africa where many slaves where removed, many of them where brought to Brazil or South America, I only think this because I've been told that I look like an african.
But what do I know, I will probably live my whole life wondering, asking theese questions, never get a proper answer or even a hint.
Swedish?
Would any swedish person actually agree that I'm swedish?
How about Brasilian then?
Same story there, I'm born there and thats about it.
What can I say that I am?
I've said all my life that I'm swedish because I'm raised that way, swedish culture.
This reminds me about the family who locked their youngest son inside their cellar together with some dogs, the boy started to act like a dog and even thought he were a dog, but no matter how people looked at him, he were a human thinking he was a dog.
Isn't this a bit of the same?
After I became older "wiser" I started asking myself all theese questions, I've always had this void inside, wondering who I am, what my family's history would be, if things could've been different.
I'm not saying that I do not appreciate everything my family has done for me, still are doing for me, don't know where I had been if it wasn't for them, I love them like a son would love his family, but at the same time there's something missing.
I actually envy most of my friends because they know who they are, where their genes come from, they feel the mateship with everyone else and doesn't stick out like me or other's like me.
A reason for me going to Australia more than study were that I belive I can find myself here, find a place I feel I belong in, I don't belong in sweden or norway, I was raised there but I feel like a black sheep in a white sheep farm.
Take Norway for instance, I have been acused for drugsmugling, for being an anchorchild and also every damn time I travel across that border, wether it's by plane or by bus they stop me, why? Because I look different, it doesn't matter that I speak the language fluently or that I've lived there for ten years, in their eyes I'm nothing but an immigrant who rapes their daughters and start pointless fights.
I've been yelled at on the street by normal people, "damn nigger go back where you came from", is it weird I feel like I don't belong?
Who am I really?
I can speculate about my genes, I think that my ancestors came to Brazil from Africa where many slaves where removed, many of them where brought to Brazil or South America, I only think this because I've been told that I look like an african.
But what do I know, I will probably live my whole life wondering, asking theese questions, never get a proper answer or even a hint.
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