First of all, let me apologize for the strong tittle, but I feel I can't hold this in any longer.
I whish the ultimate evil would just banish from this earth, blown to pieces, burned, killed, removed, the virus has to go and the weed which grows all over this wonderfull planet should be removed.
What am I talking about?
Humanity, or if you can call it that, I stick to, twolegged beasts that kill for fun and ruin everything in their path, in due time we will have comsumed everything on the earth, what will we do then?
Search for new ways in the galaxy, hah!, that only proves my point that we are like roaches, viruses, we destroy one cell or cropfield and then we move on.
Malthus said it first, the population should be reduced, don't help the people that need it and they will die of naturally, well I say take it to the extreme, there are people that don't need to exist, humankind could just aswell burn and be another speices that are lost in the history if time, earth will gradually return to it's normal state, whatever that is, what we know is that it doesnt matter where we look today, we see changes that are a direct result of human involvement, wethter it's trees in england or water shortage in japan.
We are a terrible species, we put ourself at the top at the hiarchy and we also put us ahead of other species on this planet, human arent animal accordint to scientists, so why do we have wars? Isn't that anger a production of instinctal thoughts, the same goes for rasicm, hatred towards others that are different from us.
Stupid, sure we are animals, with a sick desire to kill animals for the entertainement of others, you know what, if we want entertainement of living things, stop bullfighting or cockfighting, go for the ultimate test, ultimate beast versus ultimate beast, reopen the coloceum, force death sentenced prisoners to fight for their life, winner lives to see another day, looser, well you get the point. What rights do we have to throw a bull up against a guy with a two meter spear that he pokes the bull with? What rights do we have to decide what animals should be where, we made borders for the nortic wolfes (the few thats left that is) now what the hell is that good for?!
Last time I checked wolfe's didn't have map's or gps or any other thing to tell them where the hell they were, the only way for them to know an area from another were smell of other heards.
As I said, human are viruses, we polute, we use, we barely care for anything else then ourselfes, the great mankind, didnt we walk on the moon? didnt we go faster then the sound barrier? Didnt we climb mount everest without airsupply or go to depths so insane that no man alive could've been there?
What we are is nothing but shitt, I'm ashamed to call myself human, I would rather see this whole mankind die out, like dinosaurs, like other "higher" beings have been before us.
The only fear is, that after we are gone, some milion years from now, evolution will restart, new species will start develop and before we know it another self sentered species will be on top of it all, doing the same bloody things as we are, killing of the animals they think are useless or less worthy.
Life is a cycle, but this pisses me off.
I dont care what people think, let's hope that our "leaders" of the world will wake up and realize that they are focusing on the wrong hellish things!
Enviroment, nature, wildlife wellfare, now thats important!
Not who has the biggest guns, or best groceries!
onsdag 15. september 2010
søndag 12. september 2010
Step up or die
Life is unfair, many try and fail.
Many people today that are rich becomes rich without having to work for it, some people are born into it and others cheat the system to get it.
Problem with life is, if you give up and become a doormatt people are going to take advantage of you, use you so they can climb up the ladder, there are people that work fifty years in the same position to see the higher rank taken by some kid that just finished highschool, I read a blog about a woman who went from work to work because she were treated badly in them, in one she were sexually harassed, when she complained she got fired, in another she got spat in the face because the customer didnt like coloured people and she's just like me, adopted.
Life isnt fair, but if you let it step on you, let it do whatever it want to you, you wont get far, sure I screwed up majorly last semester, but I'm not giving up, not yet, I'm not going to be stuck in a deadend job, picking up smaler peices for others.
It's time to give life a fist in the face and get on with it!
Many people today that are rich becomes rich without having to work for it, some people are born into it and others cheat the system to get it.
Problem with life is, if you give up and become a doormatt people are going to take advantage of you, use you so they can climb up the ladder, there are people that work fifty years in the same position to see the higher rank taken by some kid that just finished highschool, I read a blog about a woman who went from work to work because she were treated badly in them, in one she were sexually harassed, when she complained she got fired, in another she got spat in the face because the customer didnt like coloured people and she's just like me, adopted.
Life isnt fair, but if you let it step on you, let it do whatever it want to you, you wont get far, sure I screwed up majorly last semester, but I'm not giving up, not yet, I'm not going to be stuck in a deadend job, picking up smaler peices for others.
It's time to give life a fist in the face and get on with it!
onsdag 1. september 2010
A real awakening
At UNI today they started talking about ethnisity and culture, some of the people said that they were proud Australians and no matter how they looked at it they were Australians, they couldn't change it even if their wanted to, some of them seemed to indicate that where you are born is where your ethnisity lies, so what is my ethnisity?
Swedish?
Would any swedish person actually agree that I'm swedish?
How about Brasilian then?
Same story there, I'm born there and thats about it.
What can I say that I am?
I've said all my life that I'm swedish because I'm raised that way, swedish culture.
This reminds me about the family who locked their youngest son inside their cellar together with some dogs, the boy started to act like a dog and even thought he were a dog, but no matter how people looked at him, he were a human thinking he was a dog.
Isn't this a bit of the same?
After I became older "wiser" I started asking myself all theese questions, I've always had this void inside, wondering who I am, what my family's history would be, if things could've been different.
I'm not saying that I do not appreciate everything my family has done for me, still are doing for me, don't know where I had been if it wasn't for them, I love them like a son would love his family, but at the same time there's something missing.
I actually envy most of my friends because they know who they are, where their genes come from, they feel the mateship with everyone else and doesn't stick out like me or other's like me.
A reason for me going to Australia more than study were that I belive I can find myself here, find a place I feel I belong in, I don't belong in sweden or norway, I was raised there but I feel like a black sheep in a white sheep farm.
Take Norway for instance, I have been acused for drugsmugling, for being an anchorchild and also every damn time I travel across that border, wether it's by plane or by bus they stop me, why? Because I look different, it doesn't matter that I speak the language fluently or that I've lived there for ten years, in their eyes I'm nothing but an immigrant who rapes their daughters and start pointless fights.
I've been yelled at on the street by normal people, "damn nigger go back where you came from", is it weird I feel like I don't belong?
Who am I really?
I can speculate about my genes, I think that my ancestors came to Brazil from Africa where many slaves where removed, many of them where brought to Brazil or South America, I only think this because I've been told that I look like an african.
But what do I know, I will probably live my whole life wondering, asking theese questions, never get a proper answer or even a hint.
Swedish?
Would any swedish person actually agree that I'm swedish?
How about Brasilian then?
Same story there, I'm born there and thats about it.
What can I say that I am?
I've said all my life that I'm swedish because I'm raised that way, swedish culture.
This reminds me about the family who locked their youngest son inside their cellar together with some dogs, the boy started to act like a dog and even thought he were a dog, but no matter how people looked at him, he were a human thinking he was a dog.
Isn't this a bit of the same?
After I became older "wiser" I started asking myself all theese questions, I've always had this void inside, wondering who I am, what my family's history would be, if things could've been different.
I'm not saying that I do not appreciate everything my family has done for me, still are doing for me, don't know where I had been if it wasn't for them, I love them like a son would love his family, but at the same time there's something missing.
I actually envy most of my friends because they know who they are, where their genes come from, they feel the mateship with everyone else and doesn't stick out like me or other's like me.
A reason for me going to Australia more than study were that I belive I can find myself here, find a place I feel I belong in, I don't belong in sweden or norway, I was raised there but I feel like a black sheep in a white sheep farm.
Take Norway for instance, I have been acused for drugsmugling, for being an anchorchild and also every damn time I travel across that border, wether it's by plane or by bus they stop me, why? Because I look different, it doesn't matter that I speak the language fluently or that I've lived there for ten years, in their eyes I'm nothing but an immigrant who rapes their daughters and start pointless fights.
I've been yelled at on the street by normal people, "damn nigger go back where you came from", is it weird I feel like I don't belong?
Who am I really?
I can speculate about my genes, I think that my ancestors came to Brazil from Africa where many slaves where removed, many of them where brought to Brazil or South America, I only think this because I've been told that I look like an african.
But what do I know, I will probably live my whole life wondering, asking theese questions, never get a proper answer or even a hint.
tirsdag 31. august 2010
Nighttime working
Here I am
Working on my assigment, I should be sleeping, but I can't, I wont.
Not until I'm completely finished with this, for some reason I work better at night.
I'm more concentrated and actually read through papers and books more carefully.
At the same time what I'm writing about is really interesting, eutrophication in the Baltic Sea also known as Östersjön, basicly what I've found out only in half an hour is that the dephtpenetration has been reduced in the baltic sea since 1940 and this could be a direct link to eutrophication.
First of all, what is dephtpenetration?
Dephtpenetration is a meassurement that tells us how far down in water light can travel before vanishing. If dephtpenetration is to low in let's say a lake, the bottom will be ruled bu abiotic factors and bacteria that doesnt need air.
What is Eutrophication?
This is something I'm hung up with, I blame the swedish aggroculture (farming) for most of the problems in the Baltic Sea, which means: Minerals such as nitrogen and metals are drained from the farms and goes to the closest water recource, rivers or into the ground, where it eventually ends up in either the ocean or the Baltic Sea, the minerals are there to start plant growth, corn, leduce, you name it, so it starts a reaction in the water, plancton multiplys, this is something in comon with all marine plants, the problem is that since plant plancton also multiplys the depthpenetration get's reduced and things on the bottom starts to die, in sweden this year over 200 spieces in the swedish redlistbook won't be there even though they were there last year, most of theese are marine spieces that lives in the Baltic Sea since it's a mixture of salt and freshwater.
This alone should make it into a national park, but no, that won't happen and agriculture can keep on dumping their crap into it.
Working on my assigment, I should be sleeping, but I can't, I wont.
Not until I'm completely finished with this, for some reason I work better at night.
I'm more concentrated and actually read through papers and books more carefully.
At the same time what I'm writing about is really interesting, eutrophication in the Baltic Sea also known as Östersjön, basicly what I've found out only in half an hour is that the dephtpenetration has been reduced in the baltic sea since 1940 and this could be a direct link to eutrophication.
First of all, what is dephtpenetration?
Dephtpenetration is a meassurement that tells us how far down in water light can travel before vanishing. If dephtpenetration is to low in let's say a lake, the bottom will be ruled bu abiotic factors and bacteria that doesnt need air.
What is Eutrophication?
This is something I'm hung up with, I blame the swedish aggroculture (farming) for most of the problems in the Baltic Sea, which means: Minerals such as nitrogen and metals are drained from the farms and goes to the closest water recource, rivers or into the ground, where it eventually ends up in either the ocean or the Baltic Sea, the minerals are there to start plant growth, corn, leduce, you name it, so it starts a reaction in the water, plancton multiplys, this is something in comon with all marine plants, the problem is that since plant plancton also multiplys the depthpenetration get's reduced and things on the bottom starts to die, in sweden this year over 200 spieces in the swedish redlistbook won't be there even though they were there last year, most of theese are marine spieces that lives in the Baltic Sea since it's a mixture of salt and freshwater.
This alone should make it into a national park, but no, that won't happen and agriculture can keep on dumping their crap into it.
fredag 27. august 2010
The grades and what they mean.
I guess if I went through what my grades meant without explenation no one back home would get it.
So here it is, a list over grades.
F
<50%
Serious conceptual of factual mistakes and indaequacies in interpretation and expression.
Misses the major points. Illogical arguments and unsubstained statements. Irrelevant argument or showing an unacceptable level of understanding of the relevant material. Inadequate referencing.
P
(50 - 64%)
A competent discussion of the basic material. Organization of argument generally satisfactory. Clear and effective expression, presentation and referencing.
CR
(65 - 74%)
Above average review of the literlature. High level of expression and presentation. Clear indication of ability to construct and sustain an argument. Clear and appropiate referencing.
DN
(75 - 84%)
Excellent comprehension of the main revelant facts and concepts. Evidence of independent thought. High quality organization. Clear and appropiate referencing. Impressive level of expression and presentation.
HD
(85 - 100%)
Exceptional comprehension of a full range of relevant concepts and factual material.
Clear evidence of extensive reading and independent thought. Exceptional logical organization. Exceptional expression and style. Clear and appropiate referencing. Outstanding work in all respects.
So there you go, if you wonder what the % mean it's simply this.
Essay - 20%
Major essay - 40 %
Tutorial presentation - 10%
end of semester test - 20%
Tutorial attendance - 10%
sum - 100%
So there you go, ofcourse it's not like this on all topics, but in most of my topics it's the same.
So here it is, a list over grades.
F
<50%
Serious conceptual of factual mistakes and indaequacies in interpretation and expression.
Misses the major points. Illogical arguments and unsubstained statements. Irrelevant argument or showing an unacceptable level of understanding of the relevant material. Inadequate referencing.
P
(50 - 64%)
A competent discussion of the basic material. Organization of argument generally satisfactory. Clear and effective expression, presentation and referencing.
CR
(65 - 74%)
Above average review of the literlature. High level of expression and presentation. Clear indication of ability to construct and sustain an argument. Clear and appropiate referencing.
DN
(75 - 84%)
Excellent comprehension of the main revelant facts and concepts. Evidence of independent thought. High quality organization. Clear and appropiate referencing. Impressive level of expression and presentation.
HD
(85 - 100%)
Exceptional comprehension of a full range of relevant concepts and factual material.
Clear evidence of extensive reading and independent thought. Exceptional logical organization. Exceptional expression and style. Clear and appropiate referencing. Outstanding work in all respects.
So there you go, if you wonder what the % mean it's simply this.
Essay - 20%
Major essay - 40 %
Tutorial presentation - 10%
end of semester test - 20%
Tutorial attendance - 10%
sum - 100%
So there you go, ofcourse it's not like this on all topics, but in most of my topics it's the same.
torsdag 26. august 2010
Everything has it's place
I realized today that my room looks like Hiroshima after Big-Boy hit it, ruble here and there, waterbottles spread out on the floor, papers, clothes and more in my bed and the list goes on.
But what I also realize is I know where everything is. Eg, all my schoolthings are infront of the door, the first thing I see when I get home are my books, papers and so on from uni and since they are there I always know where they are and will always find them in case I need them. Plus I'm always on top of my work, knowing what I have and when they are due, if they had been tuced away in a draywer or in my bag I wouldn't notice them.
So stuff are everywhere and I know where they are, this take me back to before I came here, when I lived in a small cellar room at my mother's, I had the same kinda system there, but wasn't allowed to follow it, because it looked unorganized, but it wasn't.
Actually I never found anything after my mother had secretly cleaned my room without me knowing.
What does that mean?
1. Everyone creates their own enviroment.
2. If someone disturbs that enviroment the owner would be confused or even angry.
3. What might look like a battlefield can infact be more organized than what doesn't.
That's it for now, later I will put up the grades and what they mean.
But what I also realize is I know where everything is. Eg, all my schoolthings are infront of the door, the first thing I see when I get home are my books, papers and so on from uni and since they are there I always know where they are and will always find them in case I need them. Plus I'm always on top of my work, knowing what I have and when they are due, if they had been tuced away in a draywer or in my bag I wouldn't notice them.
So stuff are everywhere and I know where they are, this take me back to before I came here, when I lived in a small cellar room at my mother's, I had the same kinda system there, but wasn't allowed to follow it, because it looked unorganized, but it wasn't.
Actually I never found anything after my mother had secretly cleaned my room without me knowing.
What does that mean?
1. Everyone creates their own enviroment.
2. If someone disturbs that enviroment the owner would be confused or even angry.
3. What might look like a battlefield can infact be more organized than what doesn't.
That's it for now, later I will put up the grades and what they mean.
mandag 16. august 2010
six months
Wow, today it's six months since I arrived here in Oz, it feels like I've been here forever.
Six months ago a nervous young boy arrived in Adelaide, today a less nervous and just a tad more manly...boy sit by his computer, writing about six months ago.
I've learned so much about Australia and alot about people, I meet new people almost every day and altough not all of them are friendly I still enjoy myself.
The thought of moving back home seems alien and odd, it feel's like I could stay here forever, become an aussie. (not before the world cup in Brazil kicks of though)
Twenty years and the world is my playground, (well almost) I also mett this guy at a party the other day and he told me of a project that international students have toghether with their embasy in Canberra which allows them to litterly get a foothold inside the embasy, sounds like something for me.
Just to quote a great song:
Tell me what you hear
And then tell me what you see
Everybody has a different to view the world
I would like you to know
When you see the simple things
To appreciate this life
It's not to late to learn
Anyway, the more I see the more I wanna know, the more I learn and this course I am doing can really help me get a good foothold in Oz weither it's human rights or govermental work.
My life is at it's beginning soon I will be on top of it all.
Six months ago a nervous young boy arrived in Adelaide, today a less nervous and just a tad more manly...boy sit by his computer, writing about six months ago.
I've learned so much about Australia and alot about people, I meet new people almost every day and altough not all of them are friendly I still enjoy myself.
The thought of moving back home seems alien and odd, it feel's like I could stay here forever, become an aussie. (not before the world cup in Brazil kicks of though)
Twenty years and the world is my playground, (well almost) I also mett this guy at a party the other day and he told me of a project that international students have toghether with their embasy in Canberra which allows them to litterly get a foothold inside the embasy, sounds like something for me.
Just to quote a great song:
Tell me what you hear
And then tell me what you see
Everybody has a different to view the world
I would like you to know
When you see the simple things
To appreciate this life
It's not to late to learn
Anyway, the more I see the more I wanna know, the more I learn and this course I am doing can really help me get a good foothold in Oz weither it's human rights or govermental work.
My life is at it's beginning soon I will be on top of it all.
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